The In Between

Sorry I haven't blogged in a long time. As many of you know I was in a bad car wreck November 22nd. The 30th I was released from the hospital. Right now I am at the place where I had been training, and my mom is here taking care of me. My injuries include 2 broken legs, a broken tail bone, and a broken jaw (quite difficult to talk and eat!, my eating consists of liquids). Please pray for the healing of my body. We aren't sure yet what this means as far as my going overseas, but we are waiting patiently on the Lord.

As far as the wreck goes, I am very blessed because I don't remember anything. I don't even remember the car starting to swerve. A man accidentally came over into our lane, and my team member Brook turned so we wouldn't get hit. We then hit several trees and the car was totalled. Brook is doing okay, she has a broken wrist and glass in her arm. It's been a little bit harder for her as far as remembering because while she was awake, I wasn't responding to her. A pretty scary feeling. We were then both airlifted to different hospitals, but it took them awhile to figure out who I was. My parents were contacted and then drove with Brook's mom to Virginia. They weren't able to fly for various reasons, but got here as fast as they could.

My first day or two in the hospital were a blur, but I know God was protecting me from the pain. Whenever you go through something like this people automatically want to know if you are angry or upset with God. The truth is that I'm not at all angry or upset with him. Who am I to question what God allows? Who am I to question his timeline? I have quickly started to realize that in our faith there is NO IN BETWEEN. I either trust God completely, or I don't trust him at all. I would challenge you to consider this. Do I trust him even though my body is broken and all of my plans have changed? For me the only option is to continue on in trust. I will not curse my heavenly Father, and I will not doubt him. Sometimes I may question it and not understand, but I will not turn away from him. His ways are so much bigger than ours. What will it take for us to know that? I know that the evil one would love no more than to see us defeated as Christians or to see us angry at God for our circumstances. I know this is a lie, and I choose to believe that God's name will be exalted higher than before because of this. For those of you that know me, you know that I was in a bad car accident also when I was 17. This is interesting because this wreck happened right before I went on my first mission trip. My wreck now has happened right before I am supposed to do international missions for 2 years. Satan does not want God's name to be proclaimed, but we will continue to proclaim it anyways!

I pray that God's name is lifted up on my lips and on yours. Please consider the in between. If you think you are in the in between, maybe you should think again. I strongly believe there isn't an in between. It's all or nothing.

Your prayers mean so much to me, more than you know. All of the emails and messages are so special to me. Sorry if I don't get back to you because of the volume in which I've received them, and because I haven't been on the computer. Keep praying that the Holy Spirit strengthens my family and me. We need it right now in this storm. I'm so thankful that God's always in control though.

Love you guys,
Taryn